alot has gone down..

alot happened this week. we're amazingly getting by even though we owe aton of money to people, we are getting there... and finally end of the tunnel is in SIGHT!

emrhubs has one month till he's done school. tomorrow mark's his first bunch of tests... wish him luck. For him. for us... for our life at this huge turning point.

I also went for a job interview this week. it went well and they wanted to hire me and they booked me a training schedule. but when i found out i would only be getting 5 hour shifts and spending more money on gas and being away from the kids ... i really realized what i was doing.

I wanted to be a stay-at--home mom... it's what i've always wanted.
though we needed the money tomorrow i'm doing a photoshoot for the same amount of money i would have made the week of working there... you can see how this is contradicting...

i backed out of the job. i had to!
i know gut feelings by now and i had that gut feeling. i don't want to come off lazy because i love to work! i work at my barn and i work photography... but this was different this was away from my kids and my house and my laundry and my dogs and my ... life. i'm so used to being at home and doing my wife/mom thing i couldn't do it.

and to be honest, my husband was keeping his mouth shut but when i asked if he really wanted me to - he said no. he said he didn't care about the tiny bit of money we would come out with - less than $200 a mnth! and i agreed. for some strange reason i felt the need to get a job-job and then it happened and I couldn't do it!

i just couldn't do it.

i love writing and doing photography. right now- photography is making some money and it will pick up.

later. i know my writing will make me money... i started a new novel on wattpad called ALASKA... it's had close to 1,000 reads in two days - i was floored. there's something about writing and it's really catching me.

sorry for the EPIC post. i know i've been saying i'm going to stat blogging more but now that i've figured out life a bit more. my hubby almost done school and life slowly piecing it's way back together... i feel happier...

crap this blog has been a mind whirl! i mean i sure have tracked a crazy journey thus far... and plus BC Ambulance is getting my hubby in for an interview finally! let's hope for the amazing outcome of his dream job! <3

my kid making herself into a "kitty"... 

 

would have missed this life too much...