And how i'll forever look back on this moment.

so here i am.
thinking back to the day emrhubs walked in the backdoor of the house, iphone in hand and told me he wanted to take the next Emergency Medical Responder course, which would be 3 weeks from July 14th. I remember just staring at him. purely because I was in shock. i had spent the six months prior to that coming to road blocks after road blocks with our life and what we were going to do about it...

he was nervous to leave or think of leaving his job. as he should be. as i am. but the thought of him going towards something he's always wanted, well, that was my driving force for it.
we'd be leaving safety for the unknown if we went down this path. we'd be leaving our hometown. our family. the place we had our children. to go build a life in a brand new city, brand new friends, brand new life. and we just had to know it was the right thing to do?
that is scary, ill admit...
but he walked in that door. looked at me and said he wanted to do it. we went to the bank, maxed out the rest of the line of credit and drove to the school to sign him up. handed over the $1600 for the EMR course and even at that point, we weren't sure what would happen. there wasn't the time or money for him to do full-time paramedic school. till some sort of sick miracle happened for us. someone assaulted him at work and put him off because of it. we scrounged $6,000 out of no where, pushing back bills and skipping a car payment so we could come up with even half of the paramedic tuition. his parents giving us money here and there.
and now i know, things happen for a reason...

then five months later, i sit here now, looking back to even before that EMR course, the day i started this blog and here he is, starting paramedic school today! not a pre-course for paramedic school... he'll be a PARAMEDIC at the end of this course. my husband! a paramedic.

and where will I look in six more months, where will we be? that road will be made for us. And it feels so right. For once i have no doubts i have no fears anymore.
i can read all i want on being a wife to a paramedic. i can say i'm ready to be a paramedic's wife. you all can laugh at us. cheer with us. tell us we're crazy. but i'll be standing beside him. with him my whole life. i wont give up on us. won't let us slip. we're ready. Open book. New chapter.

Most of all... This is what he's always wanted. What he's always dreamed of and Im so glad M the girl that gets to stand beside him and watch him get this dream. I always knew he was special. Always felt that.

I love you honey!