we're surrounded with the unknown. unknown of paying bills, jobs, money in general, workers compensation and everything else under the sun... and its the slow time for photography, though I do get many more bookings than the year before. but in all this darkness there's this bright light. a light lighting the rest of our life right now. that's my hubby in paramedic school.
i talk about him all the time. so much so i'm sure you're sick of it. but it really is the one thing holding all this together. he's nervous. he's confused. he's studying and trying his hardest. he's learning to save people and that's stressful in general. but all of this is riding on our new path in life... that's killing him.
but through this i can see us. a year and bit from now...
"little house, my horse outside in her lean-to. our kids running around chasing eachother. the smell of the fireplace burning. icicles falling from the roof as the snow falls gently around us. then the sound of the diesel truck as my hubby comes home from work. looking overly tired but satisfied... cookies in the oven. my inbox full of clients for the next year. my laundry room full of uniforms, horse tack and random towels..."
it's almost a perfect dream. perfect picture. i want it.
i know they say the grass is always greener (I own a horse, she proves this all the time) but in reality, nothing was green about what we were living before. Our life on paper is really MESSED right now but all i keep knowing, seeing and believing it all happened for a reason. this is the reason. that little house, family and that happy husband.
this is our life we're suppose to live. and life is just working it out for us.
stay strong. strong.
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