WHAT DO I DO... WE DO... i'm literally paralyzed in fear.
i've never felt my body so wracked in stiffness. i've sat here the last 3 months and watched my husband try and try and try. i've watched him give everything he's got. i've watched him run and climb and be amazing. all so he can do what he wants. all the while dealing with his idiot company. and in july he was assulted. and today we got a letter in the mail from wcb explaining there was not enough information to proceed with the claim so it's suspended. when wcb sat there and told us over and over that it would be fine. that my husband has a past history from when he was assaulted before. for the first time in my life i sit here not knowing what to do. i know i should not let this stop us. this is a bump. though it maybe be huge, he will not go back to that crappy job and be assaulted anymore. he will not be forced into anything anymore.
i've done. i know this where i need to step up. i need to figure this out. we need to. we have alot. a house, car payments, bills, debt.... it's like the weight of the world. his schooling that we just paid for... so he can change and never have to go on wcb ever again. or sick benefits. or anything...
last night i sold our horse trailer. that's 2,600 that we were going to dump into our credit card and pay it off. but now we don't know. i should know. i should have an answer for this.
i maybe a stay-at-home mom but i'm smart. i'm smart and i can figure this out. how can i get us through these next 6 months... how can i make this work. how can i pull money from the sky and feed us, pay our bills and still not require daycare.
i'm visual, so let's go through my options... I need to replace $2,200 a month...
1) blow out portrait sessions for $50 a pop (normally $175) - they'll be scooped up instantly
2) go do part time barn work locally. at a rate of $50-60 a day generally 2 days a week.
3) take a full time daycare. $700-1000 month likely...
4) get my book published... get is signed. get something with it!!!! this goal would be a $500,000 advance !!
5) go work at my old job as a makeup consultant but risk needing daycare. $1,000 mnth
6) sue Zellers for a cart breaking and my toddler falling out? hmm (yea that happened)
but in all reality, i can and will figure this out. and i dont care if emrhubby needs to quit his dumbass job and stick it. i will figure out a way to make the money we need and pay off our dumb debt. im determinted. now universe agree with me. throw out a sign at me and let's get on this!! i've had enough of waiting around for people. my hubby is going to school and our life will be good and continue on and we will have everything we have now and more!
